I’ve been in an odd place lately: Multiple forms of deception; varying sound bits; greed; corruption; falsified smiles; bad smells; born-in racism; gossip; rumours; hatred; people talking over people; high gluten; pork; beef; tomatoes; cheese;
sauces; bad smells; mountains of dishes; And dreams, Dreams, DREAMS!!! Foxes all over the place. Hours out of control. Thoughts out of sync with my soul. Conflicting views of myself. Drama just for the sake of it; and trying to be a good wife and mother in spite of these things. I’m too exhausted overall to try to figure out future plans. I want the pain of my present to vanish so that I can move past my emotions. I want to drop everything where it stands in life and start over. I am hurting because my creativity is highest, it seems, when I’m struggling and irritated. I want it to flow no matter my scenario or circumstances. I’ve been in painfully odd places lately.